I have been delaying this for quite a while because I wanted to write some witty thing that seemed somewhat significant. But then I have too much other shizz to say so that plan flew out the window.
Firstly, thankyou to all who have stuck with me throughout all my moods, throughout my lows and my highs. Collectively, it's only been three people but that's perfectly okay :)
Thank you Julsie for worrying even when I told you I didn't need it.
Thank you Troy for putting my problems before yours and I hope I can return the favor some day. :)
and finally, thank you Kon for just being here for me despite all my crazy ideas and hopeless plans and melodramatic spazzes, thank you so much. <3
But on to other news, I have been trying to study like crazy within the past week !
I was actually planning to breeze through this term but then I got sick and missed heaps of school which was out of my control. However, somehow I motivated myself and have been trying really really hard to catch up !
Although this means I literally have no social life, I am finally able to walk into school with a smile on my face for the first time in 5 years. It's a great feeling. Finally I know what's going on and I'm not 100questions behind in every subject. Yes, while it is true that I am not completely up to date, I am still proud of myself.
I feel like I have achieved more than I though I could.
I have
- learnt a chapter of general maths by myself (although I barely passed the prior test lol)
- caught up with chemistry and actually did all the questions for once, even more than she set
- understood physics without too much hassle and taken the initiative to see him out of class to ix up my mistakes (I'm such a derp but that's another story)
- completed an english essay after a month of not doing any relevant work. I did cheat a little but it's not that important plus I got the highest mark in the class which I was surprised at as my content wasn't that good.
- contributed heaps to psychology class discussions (They were about eating disorders so that was pretty easy but still)
- and finally gone to sleep at reasonable hours most of the time ! :)
Ahh, it doesn't seem like much and it hasn't paid off yet but I'm hoping it was worth it ! If not, I will be disappointed with myself.
I still have 8 revision tests and a summary sheet to do before my methods SAC on tuesday (also anniversary, wooh!) but I'm hoping to dedicate my whole weekend minus a morning to study (still have to take time out for chem revision for monday though, eughh)
I know this motivation won't last very long and it would be better if I was seeing results but nonetheless, it is a refreshing feeling. :)
au revoir.xo
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