I got three pedophillic waves today (Y)

au revoir. xo

I am completely stuffed for chem. I mean I have done all the work + more during the semester and have gone relatively well for tests however now I cannot remember anything.
And it's not just memory work, it's the application of tens of formulas in one question and ahhhh I don't know anything yaaaay
And its really hard and I can't do the practice exams and lel hasn't responded to my email so I can't work out of the book and trust that there aren't any proper solutions for the exams on the google site because that would be convenient.

So I just ate a huuuge piece of cake (well I got through most of it and then realized I was too full to eat the icing :(( so I gave it to dad) and now I shall be off to the gym with a friend and they will destroy me there (they actually workout lol) and tomorrow will be very scary for two reasons and I am just not looking forward to the whole thing to be honest and now I need to go and shower because I am supposed to leave in 20mins

And I think I will feel all over the place later but I really shouldn't go for a walk because that will take up time and I just want to sleep and not worry about anything.

aaaahhhh

au revoir. xo

http://subliminal-beauty.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/i-have-actually-lost-everyone.html

and yet back then I had everyone that I needed, and now I don't.

How ironic.

wish we just talked normally and things weren't weird and you looked beyond my way of speech which has quite frankly been there since forever and we discussed things like normal people do but fuck it all because you are happy, and I should be too.

au revoir. xo

I should go to the gym tomorrow, I am just reminding myself.

I wasn't a chapter in your life, I was a person.

Like idddkkk

My calendar reminded me of today's date.
I pretty much broke down crying and that feeling in my stomach has returned. :(

if you tick off five or more of the following symptoms, it's likely you're... well, you know

I don't believe these things as I can easily manipulate it however lol I am procrastinating.
Right, so clearly it could be due to a whole rangeeee of things, so this doesn't really mean much to me :)
oh and the ticks are a bit retarded

being restless and agitated ✔
waking up early, having difficulty sleeping, or sleeping more ✔
feeling tired and lacking energy; doing less and less ✔
using more tobacco, alcohol or other drugs than usual ✔
not eating properly and losing or putting on weight ✔
crying a lot ✔
difficulty remembering things ✔
physical aches and pains with no physical cause
feeling low-spirited for much of the time, every day 
being unusually irritable or impatient ✔
getting no pleasure out of life or what you usually enjoy
losing interest in your sex life
finding it hard to concentrate or make decisions ✔
blaming yourself and feeling unnecessarily guilty about things ✔
lacking self-confidence and self-esteem ✔?
being preoccupied with negative thoughts
feeling numb, empty and despairing ✔
feeling helpless
distancing yourself from others; not asking for support ✔✔✔
taking a bleak, pessimistic view of the future ✔?
experiencing a sense of unreality
self-harming (by cutting yourself, for example) ✔
thinking about suicide

I really needed you today.

au revoir. xo

lol I swear I live in the park now that I always have to leave my house and have no where else

I just want to hold you right now.

loooool

I don't want things to get better with time. That's shit. That means losing. I don't want to lose -you.

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plot twist: sometimes, lizzie likes methods

I am so sneaky. People around me got zeros for their english paper and yet I did not, wooo !

Think what you will, but it's called seizing an opportunity. If you won't, people around you will.

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I can't do this methods exam tomorrow :(
I studied hard for it all year, and then my mind messed up this past month.
Now I am really stressed and extremely unhappy and I wouldn't be surprised if I burst out in tears mid-exam.

And there's not one single thing I can do about it. Dammit.

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I feel even less free than ever, and pathetic too (Y)

I don't want to be perfect anymore :)

Enough is enough, I'll stop it.

I can't cry anymore.
I am trying but I can't.
I don't want anyone to hear me and when no one is home I just feel stupid for crying so that is that.
I am the final person judging, myself. I hate it.

au revoir. xo

P.S maybe I'll make this blog private soon, as dangerous as that may become

This is insane.
I can't sleep, I can't be awake. My skin is hot and yet I am not sick. I am just waiting, waiting, waiting.
For some sort of life from you.
However, blah blah time time so I shall continue to sit here and wait. Through today, tomorrow, my exam.
and I shall stop posting and remove that pressure from you.
I just want to call you :(

au revoir. xo

fuck this shit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just want to lie in bed with you and forget about it all.

Come and see me in the next two days please.
Just to hug, nothing else.

I am not good enough for you, it took me two years to realize that.
Don't worry, she will be.

au revoir. xo

Mum suggested that I should have a New Years party at mine.
Mum no, lol, shtaaap it !

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you came online and I wanted to start talking to you so badly but I couldn't.
lizzie, what have you done? What. Have. You. Done.

Official post of me withdrawing from most people.
There's nothing wrong with me, its all you people who I am sick of discussing things with.
You guys don't really help at all, just make things more confusing if anything.

au revoir. xo

I don't even know why people like me, it's not like I have anything desirable to offer anyway.

Don't question this post.

au revoir. xo

I dislike a lot of the things I have heard from people these past two weeks, and their opinions too.
Lesson: Don't take advice from anyone.

au revoir. xo