First time these holidays when no one else is home. I feel so much more relaxed, I think the lack of personal space was the stressor. Phewwww :)

au revoir. xo

Reading assessors reports constitutes for writing two essays right? what, no? it doesn't???

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You know what frustrates me? Having to download endless third-party apps to cope with the lack of necessary features pre-installed on android.

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Recently, I've been feeling more hyperactive without cause. I'll jump from eustress to distress quite quickly without any inbetween. Just last night I washed my hair and then exercised until 12:30am and was still hyperactive but able to sleep, this morning I woke up at 6:30 but forced myself to get more sleep until at least 7:20am.
Right now my body is still buzzing but I have a slight headache.
I felt so fucking good last night, and managed to voluntarily hallucinate without drugs to a controllable level which I've never managed to do before.
What is wrong with me? I feel like all this mind/body activity can't possibly be good and I'm semi nervous about the crash.

au revoir. xo

Looking forward to finishing school this year because the amount of work I am expected to do is piling up and I am very behind and this causes stress in two of my classes which is unpleasant. Having said this, I very much enjoy school and am not looking forward to the sudden change next year however there is one hurdle I will have to overcome that is left once school finishes and literally the only thing that will make it better is time which makes me powerless and out of control which is not fab but I guess life goes on which I am a bit sick of saying because this backseat in life is starting to get old.
All of these sentences are very long and I also hope I get positive feedback on my essay tomorrow because I really tried and will be disappointed if I have to write a new one so close to assessment day because I know that was the best I could do.
Trying to remain calm about life and just push on when necessary and be happy with people when I'm not studying because no one likes a stress ball and I don't even want to be one.
And I really want to relax but will not sacrifice crucial time (yay go me for upholding #1 tip for VCE) and I hope I become a different person after school and am more carefree and don't think about everything because that is not cool.

Hope you enjoyed this constant stream of consciousness.

au revoir. xo