The online world

There's this one girl on facebook who annoys the absolute shit out of me. No, I am not talking about the girl with a bajillion selfies of herself or many others who do strange things. No, this girl goes out of her way to start fights. She's such a smartass ALL the time and doesn't know when to back down. It doesn't help that there are heaps of people behind her (mainly guys) because she is friends with most of them. Not like there's a problem with that. Anyway, she's starting a fight with this other girl who clearly doesn't care what she has to say and she's just wasting everyones time and annoying me. Hopefully, she'll give up and go to sleep for right now I feel like slapping her (of course I would never do that, it's just a figure of speech). However, I am not going to intervene and am instead going to remain calm and go about my merry way and go to sleep soon. Ooooh, and wake up and have a VANILLA LATTE WHICH I AM VERY EXCITED ABOUT, if you can't tell. :D

au revoir. xo

I promise you that I am indeed sixteen!

I just made my phone ringtone 'Hakuna Matata' and my when my parents call, which let's face it is pretty often, I get to enjoy not picking up while listening to 'the Bear Necessities'.
It's okay for you all to be jealous. :)

au revoir. xo

First world problems

I'm so sleepy but my pillow is being very uncomfortable! This would be fine if it only happened in the day when I'm supposed to be awake, BUT NOT AT NIGHT WHEN IM CATCHING MY PRECIOUS HOURS OF SLEEP !

au revoir. xo

Haapppyyyy :)

I deleted all the depressing shit that was posted as of a few days ago because well, I was overreacting about everything.

I'm so happy at the moment ! :) :) :) I'm just derping around in my room, not doing much and listening to triple J. I listened to most of their hottest 100 (only missing some as I hadn't woken up) and it was sooo good, like there were barely any ads and I wish they did this everyday!
Right now I am listening to houseparty which is pretty much the same thing- as in all the same songs.

And no one made me happy today (I mean no one made me unhappy but like.. No one influenced my current state) and it's greaaaaaaaat :) I feel like jumping around my room and acting like a five year old! :D

For the next few weeks, actually let's make it a month.. I have decided not to dwell on things and be light and carefree :)

Hey kon, if you still read my blog I LOVE YOUUUU :) :) :) <3 <3

au revoir. xo

P.S thankyou Mr. Kettle for listening to me the past few days and not judging /too harshly/ hehehe :)

Revelation

I feel kind of lame blogging now.. Not now as in this moment but I mean now as in general.
Eghh it's not like I say everything I want to say anyway so why say anything at all?
And then if I were to make this private and rant about anything and everything it would be even worse because I would just be going on and on about crapola and no one would know and I'd feel like a bad person being so melodramatic :p
*stop thinking lizzie*

Anyway, the point of this pointless post <-- see what I did there? Was to say that I made progress today. Not like I'm trying to do some kind of program or what-not just general progress.. (why all of these general thoughts all of a sudden??) instead of weaving my way around it and scheming with a friend I asked someone something. No, nothing important but just a pending question I had been wondering...well, about 5minutes before asking them.. TO THE POINT it was strange to just ask them what I wanted to know straight out and not play any games and it's funny because they don't even realize that I did this because I'm so sneaky but yeaah..

On another note, the reason I usually ask people things in a very indirect way is because one of my biggest fears is judgement. That's right, while I effortlessly judge others around me (sorry kon this is aimed towards you -but it really does look nice :) ) I am indeed afraid of being judged.
*fade into a childhood memory
When I was in primary school I had like no friends, sure I had the few who I would hang with at school until about fifth grade when even most of them left ms but never would anyone dare to invite me somewhere out of school. I don't mean to the movies or something because come on we were like 8... No, I mean to a birthday party or a sleepover or even a little pool get together or what-not. Yes yes it sounds silly when I say it now and I didn't really realize until later on but this in fat is true. I remember even at school one time in grade five some 'cool' girls were playing jump rope (they were in my class so we were all 'friends') and they didn't let me play, they didn't even let me sit near them and watch... *cue tears* So, imagine this. A little 8 year old girl sitting in the near distance watching everyone else play jump rope.
Now now that was just my little moment of reminiscing and of course there were plenty of other times I played games with my fellow peeps such as four square and this random fairy thing where we pretended the tree was magical and we made concoctions in it's crevices.
The point is that I was been judged through the years as has everyone else which has turned into this little judgement fear.

So I totally wrote more cool stuff but i clicked on an 'undo' button I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAD which decided to delete a heap of writing which I cannot re-write due to my unfortunate gold fish memory.

But I do remember this part: I feel like mentioning Kon. Nothing particularly significant happened today but I just wanted to say that I love him and scream it to the world, just like that. Why? Because I can. :) oh, and he makes me smile even when he just pops into my mind which let's face it, happens quite often.

And right now there is a text from him on my phone which I shall open and respond to after this post as I do not wish to come across as an eager beaver who replies after about 1.2574 seconds like I normally do.

au revoir. xo

a new year

So I haven't blogged for like a month and properly in even longer!

Today my significant other downloaded heaps of Death Cab For Cutie music for me! :)
Right now I'm writing this, listening to it and trying to restrain myself from finishing the box of chocolate also from him.

So the past few months have been eh eh.. No overnight visits but still a few bad days...

Sidenote: THIS MUSIC IS AMAZING !
Beware: the chunky paragraph below does not want to split into smaller paragraphs like I want it to so it's not my fault..

Anyway, my social life has been pretty good-not fantastic but still better than average. :) yes, whilst it is true that I haven't seen all of my friends such as Julsie pants and Alex for ageees I've got to spend so much time with kon!

It's good to see that even after a whole year of me twirling around him and nagging him to download me random shizz all the time and bitching about peeps and all this other irritating stuff I do.. We are PERFECT. <3 Hmm what else what else.. Well guess I'll talk about him for a little longer. Yesterday we went shopping (I kind of forced him, I'll admit) but it was great! We walked around all coupley-like and bought him jeans (oh so sexy) and then just before leaving we went to lush which just happens to be like my favourite shop...oh and its like a handmade soap kind of thing-you really have to look it up to know what I'm talking about.. Anyway, he bought me all these bath bombs and I was beaming by the time that we left. It was so sweet I was all jumpy jumpy happy happy in my head :) tehehheehe and we ate dumplings and walked around and it was fun! Now onto Alex, well I haven't seen you for like a year-or at least since my birthday WHICH TOO WAS AGES AGO! now I get that you're busy as I have more talk-time with your answering machine than with you (true story) but well I want to see you soon! Zooommgg, maybe we can go to the ciand ill chill? I know this cute tea room that a friend showed me and it's classy but oh so chique! :) well, I know that you read this so feel free to text me or call me or what-not to tell me what you think about my idea as I am likely to forget very soon :p On another note, COME BACK TO SCHOOL PLEASE! Arghh we used to have so much fun and the lockers were cool and 'that' rose and all this other stuff that we did :) don't forget TOM and random other things we signed up for foolishly (I still have the photos) And to be honest I'm becoming a different person, like this happened especially towards the end of the school year and well.. I'm not sure if its good or not! D: so come back and keep me grounded and like I was before-kind of pleeaasse :) Oh, and I love you ! Next is dear Graceline. You ma' dear are living it up in France and there have been so many times I have wanted to chill and bitch and watch Sherlock and dance and other cool stuff we used to do! It sucks that the time difference is ridiculous so we never actually have a proper conversation together and well yeah.. I'll probably inbox you this as you don't have this link yet heh... Anyway, come back soon please because I miss you more than you know! I'm always like, 'let's go shopping with grace' or 'I feel like coffee/lunch with grace' or 'come to the beach grass' or even 'I feel like crashing at yours and being chillers today grace' but no, you're halfway across the globe.. Nevermind you'll be back soon and things shall be swell. :) you too, are one of the ones that I need to hang with more to stay the Lizzie you know.. No pressure ! Hahaha hmmm, well theres your little confession letter deary. <3 Gabs Gabs. Besides you still not being in Melbourne things are pretty awesome between us at the moment. :) there's not much I can say pr even slip in an inside joke as we have FAR too many! But I guess that's what makes us the cool cats that we are! Mr. Kettle. Well, what can I say? We like never talk anymore.. Either I'm asleep or your away or it's just bad timing but I miss our conversations! But you know what? It's okay, because when we talk we shall have ages through the night and we shall be silly and I'll probably complain or bitch or both and go away for like a bajillion food breaks and come back and complain of being 'fat' but hey, what's what we do right? :) and don't you think it's nice to just read my blog and not panic or stress or text me for fear of what I'm foolishly doing. :) mwaah xxxx Sidenote: it's this music that's making me so relaxed. And last but not least, Julsie. Yes, I am well aware that we aren't talking as much-hell we barely converse at the moment! But I guess it's just one of those times.. It don't mean that our friendship is deteriorating or that I don't care or what-not and you know that I'm there if you really need me but yeaah..fear not I shall spam you sooner or later! So, this turned out to be a little long as post made for people even though I said I wouldn't blog for others but I guess I just needed to voice my thoughts to them without talking in their face. :)

and I'm happy happy happy and it's all thanks to my handsome man. When ever I am lacking in the love department ie. You feel unloved, please don't! You are the most special thing I have and as I told you today YOU are the one I can tell anything to. I've tried to fit you into the bestfriend category as well as lover category but it just seems strange. I mean, you're not really my bestfriend- you have your own group which is different but terrific in so many ways! and I love you so very much from the bottom of my feet up to the tip of my hair because well, we all know that that's lower than out heart-come on! Plus if one were to say 'from the bottom of my heart' it only makes me think that there's so much stuff piled on top of that that it's a little less significant which you most definitely are not! And plus, feet don't really store much important stuff anyway so my love is the only thing occupying them. THAT'S RIGHT PEOPLE, YOU HEARD CORRECTLY! I love from the bottom of my feet, what of it? You're all just jealous that I thought of this and I'm so alternative.

So, I hope that made you smile and good day! I am now off to sleep/watch gossip girl/tumblr/watch tiny planets and OF COURSE devour the rest of the chocolate.. My oh my I'm becoming the size of a dugong! (but only in my head, only in my head....)

I love you all!

au revoir. xo