It was nice to see him again but things are changing. It saddens me but that's just the way things are I guess.

I seek connection, comprehension, understanding.

au revoir. xo

I used to be a happy child. But then I grew up and that innocence was lost. Everyone is struggling, no one will escape it. Now I'm just emotionless and can't remember much.

"I missed you"

"okay...

    me too."

au revoir. xo

concerts/gigs I have been to

• the Wombats (2011)
• Tortoiseshell (2011)
• the Wombats (again) (2011)
• Owl Eyes (2011)
• Faker (2011)
• Two Door Cinema Club (2012)
• Jungle Giants (2012)
• the Vaccines (2012)
• Maroon 5 (2012)
• Evermore (2012)
• the Cab! (2012)
• Of Monsters and Men (2013)
• the Mammals (2013)
• Imagine Dragons (2013)
•  'the suns' -not their name but I cant remember atm (2013)
• London Grammar (2014)
• Vancouver Sleep Clinic (2014)
  cat empire
  cloud control

and I have seen these artists busking

• Passenger (2010)
• Set Sail (2014)
  the pierce brothers

and I swear I maybe may have seen the Killers but not sure when and that may very well be a lie....

au revoir. xo

a collection of short musings written over some period

I feel so nostalgic. it almost hurts.
The way you wrapped your arms around me, "are you listening, I want you to hear what I am saying"
your face was so close to mine, the music was loud and in that moment it was just us
You sounded definite. each word clearly drawn out.

I helped you into your bed
our bodies always touching
so warm so warm.
You were there, near me as I slept
I felt safe, you were present
it was hot
I watched you sleep.

I was happy

I spoke of sadness, with your arms around me
your lips touched mine in the afternoon light
we, as an entity, were warm
I fell in love with another part of you.

I'm crying from my restless heart
it only wants yours to be nearer

my bed is cold and empty, I feel this way too
yet I am happy. I  am  happy

I'm restless from this love

I always feel sad after good times, yet my mind cannot retain the memories in anything more than a fuzz.

can one feel sad for feeling happy?

I don't want to forget last night, but I greatly fear I will and I just can't, it was too precious.

au revoir. xo

I don't think I could ask for a better lover than Robert. I mean after all the trouble he went to last night (he didn't even see it as that!) to make sure I was comfortable and his lips and all the fun we had, nothing can beat this. :)

I'm v grateful for this/us

ai revoir. xo