So I'm always in a mess with school work because of one of two reasons.
Either I get more homework than others, or my time management is off.
Well, clearly you know that I don't get more work than others so I don't even know why that's an option, or it's time management.
Maybe it's the fact that I get home late everyday and have to sleep to avoid my family and because I won't be able to sleep peacefully if I go to bed early because it's kind of hard when you're not in a silent environment.
Maybe it's because people ask me for help and I do not put them second to myself, it's a flaw but I cannot change that.

I don't really think suggesting reasons why I keep flunking is necessary. Obviously I KNOW WHY THAT IS AND SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE.
But I do put effort in and I'm just so sick of underachieving all the time.

Today I read up on the prac we were doing for chem because I wanted to complete it correctly for once. I even planned not to work with some people because I knew they would do nothing. But alas, they promised they would do work. They did not, they KNEW I wanted to go well but them giving a shit about that was on a level of about zero.
And then the teacher yelled at us for stuffing up the prac and I swear she said 'you failed it' at least ten times.
You wanted to redeem yourself, well done Lizzie.

and if I am moody or silently breakdown tomorrow and you just don't give a fuck then don't talk to me, don't hang with me at break times, don't be around me so that I don't end up bothering you with my 'drama', it's not hard. Just fuck off in the other direction thanks.

au revoir. xo