you need to get out of my head.
you need to stop messing with my mind, telling me how I am and what I should do.
you need to stop swaying me in order to conform to your biased opinion.
you need to let me go.
let me be how I was before you decided to put yourself before me instead of being equal in this friendship.
Why? Because you are making me more confused than ever and you're hurting me with the thoughts of me hurting someone else with my potential behavior.
you are making me think emo thoughts, deeper than I thought before, making me actually realistically visualize them and shizz.
this isn't really any of your fault but it sure is making everything difficult for me !
aghh, I'm just so confused and lost about what I should be doing, and thinking and it makes my head hurts and makes me just want to sleep for days on end and it brings me great torment and nightmares and guilt, I guess.
au revoir. xo
seriously, to all you people who have this blog: it is beyond me as to why I gave it to you but I guess it stops me from writing what I truly want to and keeps me alive and my emo thoughts at bay in a way but it's vague for a reason. It's not meant to be a game, you're not supposed to try and guess who the posts are about, or from whose perspective or even what is going on. Because, I assure you, you have no idea and asking me only makes me less liable to tell you when I want to.
This is supposed to be a place where I can write down my thoughts, like a diary. And in a way you should be honored that you can read it even though it's nothing sepcial, so please don't abuse that power by questioning everything on here. These are my thoughts, not question provoking statements.
It's infatuation.
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