Sorry for all the unhappy posts ! I promise there will be a cheerful one soon, I've already compiled quite the list in my mind and when my laptop is in working condition again I'll blog about it ! :)
But please remember, I blog for no one else, these are just collection of my thoughts. Having said that, I'm still thinking of people.
I can't even talk to you anymore. You've been there for me since I can remember, but now you've got it tough and I'm in the wrong.
There's so much I want to tell you about me, you have no idea. I'm no fool, I know what's going on with you and there's no way I'll add to your platter of troubles.
You say you can't trust me but then you go and do the same thing he did to you. Zero explanation. I hardly think this is fair, if not hypocritical of you.
We talk through the night. I want to give you those happy moments when you forget about everything and just act your fifteen year old self, if only over a phone.
You say it hurts, and yet you have no clue how I feel, how selfish of me !
I'm scared of losing you. The instabilities cause confusion and spontaneous actions and I doubt you'd listen to me if something were to happen.(I hate myself for even thinking that)
But my oh my do I wish that we could just run away from this stupid life, these stupid problems, these stupid people and just be how we were once upon a time !
You've filled that lonely gap I have, with no-one close to talk to, no siblings...nothing.
I miss you, I really do. Just please give me the chance to at least see you.
i love you my dear friend.
au revoir. xo
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