Today I was heading to the city so I made sure to eat breakfast despite my wants so that I would not be compelled to buy much unhealthy food for lunch. So that's milo cereal -check.

Then for lunch I bought a naan bread from bread top because I am a cheapskate plus its so delicious!!! So that's cereal + naan bread -check.

Then I ate two apples while reading in the gardens and later bought a boost which I almost finished despite not really wanting it halfway though.

So that's cereal + bread + 2 apples + boost

and then came dinner.... I was planning on making a tuna, greek yoghurt and cheese toastie but a) it would break the semi-healthy streak and b) there was no sliced cheese left and I couldn't be bothered to cut from the block (my excuse anyway..) and I couldn't make popcorn because dad is asleep so I HAD to resort to a cucumber and tomato, somehow I feel this will not be the end...

au revoir. xo

Turns out I did 112 practice exams (not including english) leading up to exams

I really miss him

That equates to around 150 hours on exams alone

He's not even gone for that long

Excluding 4 hours of tuition and roughly half the exam time that it took to mark said papers

I've really grown attached to him though, I guess that's why I don't like losing him, even if all that means is a few extra kilometres between us for two weeks

Wow, that's a lot more than I thought. I hope it shows

I feel somewhat pathetic about it but I don't even really care because we're lovely :)

au revoir. xo

and two and a half years later I responded

au revoir. xo

So yesterday I did seven chem exams -not sure about the quality of the last ones and today I have done barely anything because I really don't want to study for physics! I have also managed to lose several chem exams (I think) which is stressing me out because I can't correct my mistakes which is what I need most in this subject but I did email my teacher like a million times about it so I think I am going to go and take a shower now and then do one or two chem exams and actually mark the exams I did yesterday.

Tomorrow I am going to the beach so maybe when I get home I will do a physics exam eurghh and then wednesday all day I will do physics and then hopefully by the end of wednesday I will not be stressing out about this -it really doesn't help that my teacher not only responds to emails a week later or not at all, but only when he is at school.

merp merp merp I am so exhausted I just need to escape already (speaking of which, I do not actually have any plans of escaping after exams so not really much to look forward to there either...)

au revoir. xo

I'm in such a calloused state that I am able to remain unaffected by what would usually be considered frustrating or detrimental to myself. Honestly, I would be surprised if anything other than this/the usual occurred the night before my exam- the obsession of my parents.

au revoir. xo

groomed brows and steamed face later...

au revoir. xo

Once I finish exams I am going to try and not depress myself by keeping busy!

• I am going to clean my room and take out all year 12 related things such as past papers, textbooks and loose sheets to free up cupboard space.
• I am going to listen to cheery music and be happy
• I am going to see friends and not feel guilty
• I am going to live in the city during sunny days and be free
• I am going to re-arrange my furniture and make my room more 'homey'
• I am going to get a job and have a steady income so I can be more independent
• and lastly, I am going to try my hardest not to think, not to stress and not to feel bad

This sounds pretty good to me!

:)

au revoir. xo