I got three pedophillic waves today (Y)

au revoir. xo

I am completely stuffed for chem. I mean I have done all the work + more during the semester and have gone relatively well for tests however now I cannot remember anything.
And it's not just memory work, it's the application of tens of formulas in one question and ahhhh I don't know anything yaaaay
And its really hard and I can't do the practice exams and lel hasn't responded to my email so I can't work out of the book and trust that there aren't any proper solutions for the exams on the google site because that would be convenient.

So I just ate a huuuge piece of cake (well I got through most of it and then realized I was too full to eat the icing :(( so I gave it to dad) and now I shall be off to the gym with a friend and they will destroy me there (they actually workout lol) and tomorrow will be very scary for two reasons and I am just not looking forward to the whole thing to be honest and now I need to go and shower because I am supposed to leave in 20mins

And I think I will feel all over the place later but I really shouldn't go for a walk because that will take up time and I just want to sleep and not worry about anything.

aaaahhhh

au revoir. xo

http://subliminal-beauty.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/i-have-actually-lost-everyone.html

and yet back then I had everyone that I needed, and now I don't.

How ironic.

wish we just talked normally and things weren't weird and you looked beyond my way of speech which has quite frankly been there since forever and we discussed things like normal people do but fuck it all because you are happy, and I should be too.

au revoir. xo

I should go to the gym tomorrow, I am just reminding myself.

I wasn't a chapter in your life, I was a person.

Like idddkkk

My calendar reminded me of today's date.
I pretty much broke down crying and that feeling in my stomach has returned. :(